Some things in life are very scary. There is no doubt
a sub conscious sliding scale. Moving…kinda scary. Get
married…very scary. Somewhere in between sits the
other things. I guess no matter what, as humans we are
inevitably going to survive most of the things life
throws at us. I’ve been through unemployment,
bankruptcy, messy break ups and having my nice car
taken away. So in truth, not much scares me in regards
to things “falling apart.” If I ever find myself alone
and broke again, you’ll find me in a park bench
somewhere in Seattle chain-smoking.

So I put in my two weeks notice. I’ve been at the same
job now for 5 years and I’m scared to death that this
change will be a humungous disaster. Granted I’ll
actually be using my masters and my brain, but part of
me still lives in fear that I might not be able to
survive even with those damn fine credentials. Chief
among the changes will be a loss of unchecked internet
access all day. Not that I relish surfing the net on
company time. Lord knows the day would be better spent
being productive. It is just a case of foreign unknown
things coming to fruition.

These next couple of weeks I will make extra effort to
blog like crazy, because after that I’ll have precious
little time for it. I’ll miss the release, but I’ll
also be glad to feel like I’m doing something for my
future instead of spinning my wheels. Hopefully I’m
not jumping out of the frying pan and into the fire.