The lesser of two evils.
Do you sometimes feel like that phrase should have never existed? Usually I feel that way around election time. Lately, I’ve felt that way daily. I’m burnt out at my current job. Honestly at my wits end. Out of the blue, I had a bite for a new position. The only problem is it took 4 interviews and 2 months to go through the hiring process and they still haven’t given me a start date yet. I need to notify my current gig, but I don’t want to burn any bridges before I’m done crossing them.
Today I nearly walked out though. I’ve put in almost 5 years here doing something I never wanted to do again. It was meant to be a transition to get back into teaching or find something else more career oriented. So today I was reminded why I can not take this anymore. I’m stuck in the middle between two groups of people who lack accountability and I have some lady yelling at me simply because I’m the only one available to yell at. She is over 6 feet tall and pretty intimidating. Aside from that, I didn’t get a masters to work every Saturday of my adult life.
As scary as the chance sounds (and believe me I’ve lost sleep over the unknown) if I stay here and don’t at least take a chance, I’ll end up saying or doing something I’ll regret. I’d hate to walk, but today the thought crossed my mind. I’m in the proverbial taint of employment. The question is which direction am I heading? Sub question: which would be better or more desirable? Front and back can both stink.
Do you sometimes feel like that phrase should have never existed? Usually I feel that way around election time. Lately, I’ve felt that way daily. I’m burnt out at my current job. Honestly at my wits end. Out of the blue, I had a bite for a new position. The only problem is it took 4 interviews and 2 months to go through the hiring process and they still haven’t given me a start date yet. I need to notify my current gig, but I don’t want to burn any bridges before I’m done crossing them.
Today I nearly walked out though. I’ve put in almost 5 years here doing something I never wanted to do again. It was meant to be a transition to get back into teaching or find something else more career oriented. So today I was reminded why I can not take this anymore. I’m stuck in the middle between two groups of people who lack accountability and I have some lady yelling at me simply because I’m the only one available to yell at. She is over 6 feet tall and pretty intimidating. Aside from that, I didn’t get a masters to work every Saturday of my adult life.
As scary as the chance sounds (and believe me I’ve lost sleep over the unknown) if I stay here and don’t at least take a chance, I’ll end up saying or doing something I’ll regret. I’d hate to walk, but today the thought crossed my mind. I’m in the proverbial taint of employment. The question is which direction am I heading? Sub question: which would be better or more desirable? Front and back can both stink.
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