Thursday, May 11, 2006

Take some advice kiddos.

Don’t smoke.

I went three years without smoking and had a brief and retardedly misguided relapse where I thought I could have 1 a day. It didn’t work. I can happily say I saw the misguided logic to it and wiped out the once daily dose before it was too late. I can happily say my 30s have been smoke free.

The thing is I’ve watched this scenario play out in so many people. A friend at work was a heavy smoker and she smoked for decades. She had the cough and constant sickness to go with it. So she up and quits and feels better. Her quitting lasts for months. Then the other day I catch her out back with a smoke. I tell her not to worry, because I’ve been there and I wouldn’t judge her and it is certainly no one else’s business. The next day, she is out sick. She was having breathing problems. So hopefully it was lesson learned, but we all seem to fall off the wagon eventually and some of us permanently.

In all honesty the best thing you can do is never even tempt fate. There isn’t a day that goes by I don’t think of putting one of those stupid things in my mouth. I’ve never been a big drinker or a drug user. I’m a pretty clean teen, but man was I addicted to tobacco. I still am and I always will be. Years after quitting my pack a day habit, it haunts my dreams and in times like this when major changes bring uncertainty and anxiety, it takes literally every fiber of my being to not go to the Kangaroo and buy a pack of Marlboro’s.

Sweet, sweet Marlboros.

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