My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I walk alone
Funny how people think you are negative or depressed when you tell them you are happy alone. I genuinely am happy alone. Sure I have lonely moments, but I also have zero tolerance for human drama and relationships bring those out. If I want human drama, I’ll rent “Terms of Endearment.” I guess unattractive people usually draw the conclusion they are happy alone. So maybe I am just ugly and that is my problem. If I’m not ugly, then I’m just happy alone. I like to think I have a lot to offer, but I’m not about to go settling for whomever happens to be around. Seriously, so many people reach their late 20s and all their friends are getting married and buying houses and squeezing out kids. I know in my heart it would be a great husband and father and I know I would gladly carry both titles tomorrow if it felt right. The only problem is I have zero real desire to be in a relationship. It confuses the crap out of everyone and it confuses me. I’m certainly not having any identity crisis or anything. I know I am attracted to women and yes, for the record, all equipment is functioning. It just seems like I’m hyper perceptive and I usually pick up on the drama and the bull$hit most women carry within about 5 minutes. Once I’ve honed in on that, it’s a done deal. Which in many ways makes me just wish I was ignorant to how ready the world is to take advantage of someone with a good heart. I guess maybe I should have considered the priesthood more thoroughly.
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Till then I walk alone
Funny how people think you are negative or depressed when you tell them you are happy alone. I genuinely am happy alone. Sure I have lonely moments, but I also have zero tolerance for human drama and relationships bring those out. If I want human drama, I’ll rent “Terms of Endearment.” I guess unattractive people usually draw the conclusion they are happy alone. So maybe I am just ugly and that is my problem. If I’m not ugly, then I’m just happy alone. I like to think I have a lot to offer, but I’m not about to go settling for whomever happens to be around. Seriously, so many people reach their late 20s and all their friends are getting married and buying houses and squeezing out kids. I know in my heart it would be a great husband and father and I know I would gladly carry both titles tomorrow if it felt right. The only problem is I have zero real desire to be in a relationship. It confuses the crap out of everyone and it confuses me. I’m certainly not having any identity crisis or anything. I know I am attracted to women and yes, for the record, all equipment is functioning. It just seems like I’m hyper perceptive and I usually pick up on the drama and the bull$hit most women carry within about 5 minutes. Once I’ve honed in on that, it’s a done deal. Which in many ways makes me just wish I was ignorant to how ready the world is to take advantage of someone with a good heart. I guess maybe I should have considered the priesthood more thoroughly.
3 Comments:
it's not too late. seminaries don't have an "enroll-by" age.
(lia)
I have said it once, I have said it a million times. There is no innate need for a relationship Jonathan. Many people are happy alone. Do you want to depend on someone else to make you happy, to dictate your feelings, to possibly make you feel bad about who YOU are? Why are you feeling guilty? What is the point of that? Just because you don't want a relationship doesn't necessarily mean you are gay (not that there is anything wrong with that) or impotent (can't say the same there). You just may be TOO good to have someone be your equal, which is what a relationship should be, right? Too many people out there just settle for the adequate, hence, the divorce rate. Now, wouldn't you rather be the person that lived his life out happy and complete yet single or would you rather be the divorcee, weekend dad, paying alimony to your nagging ex wife who you have grown to hate with all of your heart and soul? Or lack such communication (because, turns out you did settle) with someone that you live the rest of your days out in a loveless marriage with no real joy and no love besides the comfort of having someone else there? It then turns out you masterbate to thoughts of the babysitter while she is sleeping with the president of the PTA yet you smile at eachother over dinner, cry during your alone time in the shower, and make faux shocked comments to eachother over the images in the tabloids of Jenna Bush strapped up in stirrups? Is that what you mean by feeling weird for not being married at 28?
The recent owner of 3 thermoses
P.S. Did I ease into the stirrup comment as smoothly as you, BlogMaster?
I have said it once, I have said it a million times. There is no innate need for a relationship Jonathan. Many people are happy alone. Do you want to depend on someone else to make you happy, to dictate your feelings, to possibly make you feel bad about who YOU are? Why are you feeling guilty? What is the point of that? Just because you don't want a relationship doesn't necessarily mean you are gay (not that there is anything wrong with that) or impotent (can't say the same there). You just may be TOO good to have someone be your equal, which is what a relationship should be, right? Too many people out there just settle for the adequate, hence, the divorce rate. Now, wouldn't you rather be the person that lived his life out happy and complete yet single or would you rather be the divorcee, weekend dad, paying alimony to your nagging ex wife who you have grown to hate with all of your heart and soul? Or lack such communication (because, turns out you did settle) with someone that you live the rest of your days out in a loveless marriage with no real joy and no love besides the comfort of having someone else there? It then turns out you masterbate to thoughts of the babysitter while she is sleeping with the president of the PTA yet you smile at eachother over dinner, cry during your alone time in the shower, and make faux shocked comments to eachother over the images in the tabloids of Jenna Bush strapped up in stirrups? Is that what you mean by feeling weird for not being married at 28?
The recent owner of 3 thermoses
P.S. Did I ease into the stirrup comment as smoothly as you, BlogMaster?
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