Closing time - every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.
Lately I’ve noticed everyone sort of falling into their peg. It seems like everyone I know has found a partner or their perfect career or begun a family. It seems like these transitions happen every day and quite seamlessly. I don’t know how people can make these leaps of faith. I have trouble committing to a hairstyle. Perhaps I need to make like Nike and “just do it.” I should jump into something even if it is the wrong thing. I should pack up and move or buy a house and commit to staying put. I always thought when I found someone then things would be easier, but they’re not. We have very different ideas about the places we want to go. I was so very ready to move away and try something new. I understand fully why other people stay in one place. They usually have family in the area that forms their support group. My family is fragmented and always busy doing their own thing. We might get together at holidays. That could easily be maintained by a plane flight home. I love my friends to death, but they’re also getting their own lives in order and before I got into a relationship, I noticed I was seeing less and less of them as they were tending to their careers, education and love lives. It is the natural normal order of things.
Maybe 30 is the most transitional period in life. I thought learning to drive, or dating, or going to college or finding my first job were all difficult stages. Truth is those pale in comparison to the types of decisions I now see everyone making. We’re buying houses, getting married and raising children. These are not temporary commitments. Even in a world were people get divorced half the time, at the very least getting married is a commitment saying someday, should you split, you’ll loose half of everything you worked for. Not to mention you’ll be seeing each other, like it or not, when you pass the kids back and forth for weekend visits. Having kids will be, at minimum, an 18 year commitment, but we all know it lasts a lifetime.
So how then does everyone appear to take these things on so seamlessly? I know I’m guilty of overanalyzing (you’re also guilty of reading it here). I finished college 7 years ago. That staggering statistic blows my mind. It is like the last decade never happened. I’m starting to feel like I’m waking up from a night of heavy drinking and I have 10 minutes to fight off the headache before I’m late for work. The years are slipping away. With action or inaction, my bankroll of time on this planet is growing smaller every day. I’m wedge between 40 and high school graduation and I still have no clue what its all about.
Lately I’ve noticed everyone sort of falling into their peg. It seems like everyone I know has found a partner or their perfect career or begun a family. It seems like these transitions happen every day and quite seamlessly. I don’t know how people can make these leaps of faith. I have trouble committing to a hairstyle. Perhaps I need to make like Nike and “just do it.” I should jump into something even if it is the wrong thing. I should pack up and move or buy a house and commit to staying put. I always thought when I found someone then things would be easier, but they’re not. We have very different ideas about the places we want to go. I was so very ready to move away and try something new. I understand fully why other people stay in one place. They usually have family in the area that forms their support group. My family is fragmented and always busy doing their own thing. We might get together at holidays. That could easily be maintained by a plane flight home. I love my friends to death, but they’re also getting their own lives in order and before I got into a relationship, I noticed I was seeing less and less of them as they were tending to their careers, education and love lives. It is the natural normal order of things.
Maybe 30 is the most transitional period in life. I thought learning to drive, or dating, or going to college or finding my first job were all difficult stages. Truth is those pale in comparison to the types of decisions I now see everyone making. We’re buying houses, getting married and raising children. These are not temporary commitments. Even in a world were people get divorced half the time, at the very least getting married is a commitment saying someday, should you split, you’ll loose half of everything you worked for. Not to mention you’ll be seeing each other, like it or not, when you pass the kids back and forth for weekend visits. Having kids will be, at minimum, an 18 year commitment, but we all know it lasts a lifetime.
So how then does everyone appear to take these things on so seamlessly? I know I’m guilty of overanalyzing (you’re also guilty of reading it here). I finished college 7 years ago. That staggering statistic blows my mind. It is like the last decade never happened. I’m starting to feel like I’m waking up from a night of heavy drinking and I have 10 minutes to fight off the headache before I’m late for work. The years are slipping away. With action or inaction, my bankroll of time on this planet is growing smaller every day. I’m wedge between 40 and high school graduation and I still have no clue what its all about.
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