I get the news I need on the weather report.
It is amazing how a few little changes in a situation will completely destroy your intended path. My friend out west just sent me an email saying another friend of his who I know from high school is moving out to Seattle. The only problem is me and this guy have never really gotten along. There aren’t many people in the world I don’t get along with but for some reason, he and I have never hit it off. I have no beef with him, but our last communication was years ago when he chewed me out for wasting his time with some Internet forward. Someone who is prone to over reaction is the last person I want to be around and worse yet, the guy might possibly be the most miserable person on earth. I listen to my share of sad bastard music and bitch and moan about the state of things, but I’m generally easy company in person and I like to think not wholly unpleasant to be around. So there goes my Seattle connection.
I also made up my mind this weekend that I would never be a good husband. Marriage requires a certain level of commitment and a desire to “stay the course” that I lack. I’m definitely not the cheating kind, so that isn’t my issue. I do know myself well enough to know if my wife hurt me, I would find it impossible to forgive her. I also don’t think it would be fair to be this fickle in the context of a marriage. I would drive a woman crazy and probably myself in the process. Perhaps I overanalyze life sometimes. I’m in a bad mood, so sorry if I brought you down.
Half of the time we’re gone and we don’t know where, we don’t know where.
The only living boy in St. Auggie.
It is amazing how a few little changes in a situation will completely destroy your intended path. My friend out west just sent me an email saying another friend of his who I know from high school is moving out to Seattle. The only problem is me and this guy have never really gotten along. There aren’t many people in the world I don’t get along with but for some reason, he and I have never hit it off. I have no beef with him, but our last communication was years ago when he chewed me out for wasting his time with some Internet forward. Someone who is prone to over reaction is the last person I want to be around and worse yet, the guy might possibly be the most miserable person on earth. I listen to my share of sad bastard music and bitch and moan about the state of things, but I’m generally easy company in person and I like to think not wholly unpleasant to be around. So there goes my Seattle connection.
I also made up my mind this weekend that I would never be a good husband. Marriage requires a certain level of commitment and a desire to “stay the course” that I lack. I’m definitely not the cheating kind, so that isn’t my issue. I do know myself well enough to know if my wife hurt me, I would find it impossible to forgive her. I also don’t think it would be fair to be this fickle in the context of a marriage. I would drive a woman crazy and probably myself in the process. Perhaps I overanalyze life sometimes. I’m in a bad mood, so sorry if I brought you down.
Half of the time we’re gone and we don’t know where, we don’t know where.
The only living boy in St. Auggie.
4 Comments:
Seattle's a big city Jonathan....
and it's good to reflect and know your weaknesses. Maybe you are too fickle to be married and maybe you don't forgive easily enough.... or maybe being in love with someone changes the rules. Who knows? I know I'm far likely to take crap from someone I love than from someone I don't. I put up with more. I forgive more. but maybe that's just me.
Well, I never wanted you to leave anyways! Who would I go to the chinese trough with??!! :)
Well, Well, well, Seattle is out of bounds?
In one word CRAP!
If you are going to allow one person to dictate your movements then go home and never leave.
As you will surely never survive this world.
I know you far better than that, I also know you would make a wonderful Father and Husband, I have seen how you handle that scenario.
Often I have told you of the wonderful springs here when the earth is slowly warmed by the sun and the first of the bulbs start to burst into bloom. All the trees start to put on their coats of many shades of green, or in the case of some fruit trees burst into bloom, or the flushes of the yellow of the wattle, The birds increase their activities with nest building, the black swans building their new/old piles of sea grass, people all getting up and going in their gardens, the glorius sunrises and sunsets that are best in Spring.
You often tell me that Seattle is like here well, come visit here then go live in Seattle, it has been a magnet for you eversince I have known you.
Stop being the self sacrificing person you are and do something for you.
Then maybe their will be a wife and family in a place called Seattle.
Now that would fulfil many of your dreams and desires, would it not? You know who.
Dude...I have to agree with 'Anonymous'! Ever since I met you...thats been your dream! Go for it! I'll come visit!!
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